Feeling my physical enclosure becoming too confined for my spirit, pressure rises into my lungs and I am lost for breath. My consciousness closes in on me, and it feels like I will not be able to make it.
Liquid gold flickers down my heart in what seems a moment that starts at that juncture and extended all the way down to eternity; a moment that defines the now, the tomorrow and the ever after. Knowledge of unfamiliar proportion downpours, forming a foreign but soothing wisdom in my heart. My mind submerges into a depth I have never perceived before. Standing in a crowd, amongst strangers none of whom resemble or understand me; in a way I know I will be okay, because in this very moment I have grown in a distinct and oddly gratifying way.
To experience life is to experience disruption, uncertainty, ache, and what seems to be a fraction of what they call happiness. To be human, is to have the ability to look beyond oneself, or one’s surroundings, and to connect to that unseen, perpetual side to this very limited world of substance and matter.
I am not intimidated by challenge and pain anymore. I am content with experiencing the mess of being a human being; certain that wisdom will be my reward.